looking back

Way backkkk into LOVEEEE

It's been damn long since I used livejournal lol =) Rotting at home nowadays, stupid acne's killing me la, cannot go out, even cutting hair became a prob zzz, phew but luckily my mum agreed to let me go for some laser facial treatment (dam ex) seriously i hope i can get rid of it once and for all lah. fk. But anw im not exactly rotting at home DOING NOTHING. thanks to dota haha kills time man, and not forgetting Gackt!!!! Seriously, after so long i finally found some singer with a low voice (HYDE too) lol. =D It's like salvation, cos i dont have to sing Jay Chou songs, or w/e chinese songs, as they are like too straining for my throat =xx ya i have this urge to sing all the time, that's jus me -.- GACKT GACKT! im too bored =.=
ok la,=x oh and did i mention i wanna learn japanese asap hahahaha =)
oh ya, recently applied for poly, and eh dun wanna list em, so i'll jus upload a pic: =x

AT LEAST i can roughly see my future goal, not like in jc whr you aim to get into university and later IF you get into uni, wonder again what course to take, in short; jus unsure abt ur future. for me, eh.. Creative media design>university art course>ART/AEP teacher in VS woooohhh

=Consoles=
-PSP 2000 black/red (SICK OF IT)

=Mp3= (ACQUIRED)
-Ipod touch 8/16gb [X]
-Ipod nano 16gb [ ]
-Creative bluetooth headphones [ ]

=Shoes= (BUYING SOON)
-Converse
-Alantica
-Nike

=Handphone=
-Samsung M8800
-or some love at first sight ones =)

=Guitar=
-Guitar tone pedal (CRAP LAZY)

=Etc= (DYING DONE)
-hair treatment (REBONDING)



less i forget...hahas!

omg, i jus cant blog for beans!

oh well...one yr's over so quickly, and the sad thing is, all the good stuff seem to come true when the year is ending. =/, hahas..like how i wish its only like april or may now...

Now, i've still got Chinese to worry abt, dunno whether Im gonna take it or not, and also thinking about whether i shud retain first, cos the deadline for applying for retention is 28 oct tues. ah, and still got OP to finish, >.<' ya, same as val, missing 1s04 too, and really looking forward to getting the class tee and the class chalet!! argh.

but nvrm, we just gonna cherish the remaining time we have together as a class!


well, lets let nature take its own course, haha.


Love you <3

love you

ithurtstobearthethoughtthatiwontbeabletoseeyouafterthisyear

ithurtsnottobewithsomeonewhomyoulovealot

ithurtstoseeyoudown

ithurtswhenidontseeyoueveryday




theonlythingthatsoothesmeistoknowthatyouarehappy.

My feelings for you are starting to overflow

Weeee found Jay's new album online, and omg this song so nice, very melodic! AND oMG Jay's old style of singing is BACKKK =D



Jay Chou 女兒紅

雨停下的天空
灰的更加老舊
你說你不懂為何在這時牽手
我晒干了承諾
灰的更加懵懂
就算做事做錯也隻是怕錯過

在一起走
分開了走
是不是說沒有做完的夢最痛
你若退后
我能承受
在最后的出口
在愛過哪兒才有

能不能給我一首歌的時間
緊緊的把那擁抱變成永遠
在我的懷裡
不用太多失眠
如果你想忘記我也能適應

能不能給我一首歌的時間
把故事聽到最后才說再見
你送我的眼淚
讓他留在雨天
如果你懷疑一心的依然勇氣當作鄙夷

被淋濕的天空
灰的更加老舊
你說你不懂我為何在這時牽手
我晒干了承諾
灰的狠沖動
就算做事做錯也隻是怕錯過

在一起走
分開了走
是不是說沒有做完的夢最痛
你若退后
我能承受
在最后的出口
在愛過哪兒才有

能不能給我一首歌的時間
緊緊的把那擁抱變成永遠
在我的懷裡
不用太多失眠
如果你想忘記我也能適應

能不能給我一首歌的時間
把歌詞聽到最后再說再見
你送我的眼淚
讓他留在雨天
如果你懷疑一心的依然勇氣當作鄙夷

你說我不該不該不該在這時候說了我愛你
要怎麼証明我沒有說謊的力氣.請告訴我
而暫停算不算放棄
我隻有那一天的回憶

能不能給我一首歌的時間
緊緊的把那擁抱變成永遠
在我的懷裡
不用太多失眠
如果你想忘記我也能適應

能不能給我一首歌的時間
哦.把歌詞聽到最后再說再見
你送我的眼淚
讓他留在雨天
哦.如果你懷疑一心的依然勇氣當作鄙夷


rap部分.

你說過我不該
在這時說愛你
要怎麼証明我沒有力氣
可是暫停卻算不算放棄

我說我不該不該
不該在這時才說愛你
要怎麼証明我沒有力氣
我隻有一天回憶

=)

Another fav - 魔杰座



okay..i've got the songs in my comp, if you want you can ask me, but pls BUY THE ALBUM TOO. =]

Okay now for some ranting; tommorrow doesn't look good, in fact it's the worst school day ever! geez, tml pw lesson starts at 1030, which the first lesson and we cant even reach sch at 10+ but early in the morning at 730. pointless. Agn, aft pw is lunch, then 2 hrs of chem. 2 hours. and then another Physics lecture. Not just lecture, most probably they might be going through the promos paper with us.

So are they trying to demoralise us, trying to tell us we cant make it? Why go through the paper before they release the results? Making us so sad and inducing the 'i-dont-feel-like-going-to-school' feeling in us.

EEEKK.

BYE.

OMG, pls dont spread, anybody who knows that *ahem* pls pls. But funny la, protect ah? LoL.

Oh yeah, today's the birth of VsXc DotA ClaN!! VsXc - Vengeance Sevenfold ©. Supposed to be victoria sch cross country, but omg, we need some creativity la! Not bad ba...i created it, inspired by Avenged Sevenfold (A7X). =) Yay First victory as a clan! And wah...really honoured to be the chieftain too =) GOGO DotA for life! >D 7 days probation period haha, peons for 7 days! >D

Really dont wanna talk abt boring stuff so i shall summarise in one sentence; boring and cold lecture, feeling lonely, but yeah expected, when everybody starts taking sides. whatever im not gonna depress myself with this, i should look at the bright side! =) and so aft council lecture, went to raffles city ate wif val and jon, and haiz, they are really info magnets!, or maybe i deserved it, by sparking their everlasting curiousity. =( VAL!, shhhh ah. =/

Yes, nvr felt so free before hehe, no hmk except making some changes to the GPP, copy paste edit, done. =) shall do it tml. cutting hair too...but heh, i shall try another funny hairstyle, hope it looks nice. =) OMG, my friend said artistic people are sentimental! den he laughed at me. -_-" i guess wad he said was abit right, but what's wrong with being sentimental?. -_- confused

And lastly, my acne, im so determined to get rid of it in the weekend, drink LOTS of WATER. '\('-')/'
Seriously la i want my confidence and self-esteem back, acne pls go away! =)

ZzZZ yes its both a pissing and physically painful day. Finally got caught for my hair, after like 2 months? sigh, just abit more and its hols already, and getting caught at such an untimely period stinks! veri boring day, all pw, its a waste of time! =( so aft pw went out wif company, and then facial. FACIAL, hella pain. Its like having thousands of injections all over la, pure torture, and all i could do was scream in pain haha! oh yes, went to heartland mall before going bugis wif company and wow i saw one dam nice pair of alanta (i tink its spelled like that) shoes, black and white. MY FAVOURITE. and its only 40. and its nicer than all my shoes! omg drool. =P
Sigh, should i go poly? or retain? or appeal to get promoted? Sigh, poly is fun, less stressful, and if i put in the same amt of hard work ,i tink im able to do well in poly lo. or shud i stay in SRJC? if i can continue, ya bright future PERHAPS, but why i dun feel like staying is bcos there's ppl i dun wish to see in sch! (dun wry not from my class.) >=( PLUS, im really traumatized by CHEMISTRY! i studyed so hard for it, and in the end, i couldn't even complete the paper in time. And of cos some other subjects too, like the economics test, which was a total flop. MATHS, amaths a2, emaths a1, BUT in JC fail like no one's business, omg wads wrong wif me huh!! chemistry a2, still screw up big time. PISSSED. wee for poly, wow i found a nice course, something totally nice and interesting...PSYCHOLOGY! just nice, L1R4 9 points in TP...quite cool! >D

OK bye, dinner time. =/ 

Why, why, why. Why are my hormones like this. Why do i always get acne while others don't. Im so sick of it man. Whats the use of keeping my face so clean when deep inside my hormones are the problem. Shhhiitt. Sigh, sorry ppl for the ECP thing, didnt wanna go 'cause i was emoing abt my acne in front of the mirror. but lucky aft a few hours, i didnt feel that sad alr, so went to kbox wif some frens. KBOX: got spoiler! lucky im gd enuff, dun wan kpkb. ah den later went to val's house, watch movie, haha watch first movie halfway sleep alr, so tired.
'
thats all la, hope my acne goes away man! gotta drink more water, eat more chocolates, and fruits...ARGH. Hurts!

Today supposed to go causeway point support shiqi, but in the end only val and me showed up. Ah seriously la, mega pang seh lah, i travelled all the way from eunos to woodlands, to and fro waste time and money sia. sigh. But nvrtheless nice stuff on the stage shiqi! hope you can be 1003 future DJ! =)

So headed back home, man, so tired; kept dosing off on the bus, lucky i didnt miss my stop hehe =) YawwN.
And crap, what is this! why do i always get pimples man,  T_T sighhh

what a tiring day. >=O wee i wore my black and white theme outfit today! XD 

Met up wif some frens and played lan, omg la, cos its been so long since i stepped into a lan shop. aft playing for like 4-5 hrs...really dizzy! =S lol val was so noooooobbbb haha, but expected la, girls Rarely play boys' games haha.

later some left, and cheeming came, went hougang mall ate dinner, AND OMG SCANDAL Guess WHO man. Dun want say la later they whack me. Hold hands, take pic tgt, and erm,...Yes, im surprised! its..*** & **** **** haha!! ok la dun disturb alr, let them have their er ren shi jie. =) then later we played pool at hougang plaza agn, and wah its tiring,..and its so hot and stuffy, cos they the plaza's aircon was off. hothot 

and... tml we gonna go Causeway Point go support our Da Jie Shiqi, good luck for DJ contest! You have our support! ^_^ and also cant wait till monday go ECP cycle...and then KBOX!! XD Happy! And im gonna get my Epiphone SG guitar already! Weeeeee. So many fun things ahead, but i guess this is like 先甜后苦... having lots of fun now... but later promo results come out, im screwed. and sorryz a7x frens out there, i have to make a choice bwt guitar, and a7x concert. Haiz, ya there's an opportunity cost to everything and this is it, and its a hard choice to make. T_T, but nvrtheless, i'll still try to persuade my mum to lemme go, and the ticket price (now shud be 100+) is rising every few days!! sigh, still got the omnia hp, if not i getting htc dual already. argh. guitar first. =) 

tsk i hate my voice lah.. i can hit the low and high notes, but middle ones i suck man haha. go kbox; throw face only. =/ hope my voice can still change till i reach ard 25 =))

Argh, I need a new life man...promos screwed up and im so gonna retain while everybody's doing well..and getting promoted. GP was ok, econs, can say bye bye, maths - forget it i dun like my tcher, and my double sciences, chem and phy was a boom, gone. retain or go poly? well depends, if can appeal, i tink i would anyway, that is if most 1s04 geeks get promoted too ^^. ...hmm den i'll start working hard. sigh im so depressed now =(

oh yea moved to livejournal, cos my blog's really got stupid memories i dun wanna remember, i hate it, everytime log in to blogspot, that feeling comes back and i HATE IT.

shud i look on the bright side...like, weee...promos over...can play..., or emo...as in to get mentally prepared less i fail to get promoted... sigh. shud have taken h2 arts if not for "it". now i tink i have to pay the price of being a foolish dog.

duno why everybody's so optimistic.., maybe they felt that they did well and getting promoted is just "duh". And me, sigh, im so not smart, if not for friends, i would not be worrying abt all these already...haiz seperation is always painful. =(

But if retain...not bad also...can change sub combi, to like:
- H2 (math, phy, chem) H1 (arts)
- H2(Arts, math, chem) H1 (phy) 

and get to join a new cca, cos i cant stand it in council already cos of the very lazy idiot.

Ah, nvm i shall just spend my last few times in SR with utmost fun...and my fate will bring me away sooner or later.

Nevertheless, i will get my Electric!!!

omg livejournal :)